A crucial part of choices and risks is not really about the consequences. It’s about that moment that you make the choice. The point where you decide that “this is what I have to do. And I’m going to do it.”

Everything will fall into place from there. It won’t always be easy but it will be worth it. You can’t stay stuck at the fork in the road or go back the way you came. Keep moving forward. Keep walking. Make a choice.

Your direction may be unclear but at least you stay in motion, you know that there is a destination. The more you walk, the clearer it gets.

Don’t be afraid. In life, we will always have signs, companions and guides. As long as we keep moving, we keep living.

--excerpt from A Rainy Sunday Afternoon with a Cup of Homemade Hot Chocolate and Ensaymada, written on April 27, 2008

You don't fall in love expecting or knowing... half the time you won't know what the hell you're doing. But I guess when it happens, the best we can do is to want it to last and to work at it. See, I believe that relationships are a one-way, two-person development.

Some people I know sometimes forget that while they're with someone, they're still independent of that person. Hypothetical girlfriend should not always make hypothetical boyfriend do what she wants and vice-versa. Draw the line with what you want to change in the person and how. Because there's still that point that you fell in love with this person because of how he/she is. Easy on the editing, honey. Don't just cut  and cut and cut and then paste to make the other person your IDEAL. I mean, what's the fun in perfection? Learn to appreciate the person's HUMANITY.

You guys are a COUPLE. Not a single entity. Let the other person have his/her own world too. I mean, when you think about it, they had a whole other life before you. Besides, you have a shared world anyway.

So it's one-way because you're together, "on the same path/journey" blah blah blah but two-person because you have different ways of... er.. growing. And duh, like I said, two people. TWO.

Sometimes I like to stick my head out of the window and stare at the patch of sky that's barely visible between all the concrete that comprises much of the Makati skyline. Watching the clouds move slowly just reminds me that everything moves. Clouds, cars, people, continents, and especially intangible things such as time. Things move, people move on. They move at different speeds, some slower than others. But they are constantly moving.

The winds of change. We all get to where we need to be. Eventually.

It'll all be okay. Eventually.

Let people in, let them stay, too. It's okay to make the mistakes that matter (but then, in that case, are they mistakes? Maybe not).

Of course, things could be better. Of course, there's always something that you could've done instead. But one thing's for sure- you can always try to make the most out of what you have. Stay positive. Don't let life be defined by a list of things you didn't do.

I've been trying to keep the optimism in the air lately. Livejournal says that I haven't updated this in 16 weeks. Not that I haven't had anything to say. A lot has happened in 4 months. A lot, definitely. I kept track of most of those months in the form of letters. Letters written to you.

I could be better. But I'm alright. I've spent almost a month going through all sorts of emotions. It's been pretty weird. It feels like you've been knocked off your orbit and you don't know where you're going.

But you can get back on track. I can get back on track.

Jumbled thoughts. Lalala